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Healing still

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I close my eyes.
And all I see is you.
I feel your fingers on my skin.
And it burns.
I can’t sleep because its there,
watching me.
It has to stop.
But how?

Take the this poison from my heart.
Gone all the pain within.
Nothing more to come of it.
Obsession at it’s end.

I close my eyes
but its still there.
I feel its breath
it’s warm
I can’t scream, my breath is caught.
Your smile,
it terrifies me.
Chilling every fibre.

Steal a glance,
I see them there.
Why do they do this to me?
Taking everything of me.

If you did not love me
you would not.
Help me not hurt me like this.
But yet it does…
But why?
I love you.

Purification

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It was raining and thundering. I could hear the storm outside. I could hear the voices of demons who were scattered across the room. And I could hear Skip begging, begging for them for his life. But I knew it wouldn’t matter, they had already made up their minds. Still, his voice did something to me, because as soon as I heard the sound of his voice I felt my heart beat. How strong he was and I knew he was here fighting to survive. He was my savior, my healer, my guardian my love.

“Pea, I thought I would never see you again,” it was Skip; his voice again; my heart was beating with joy that he was here. I was happy, but at the same time sad, because my fate would now be shared with him.

Sadly, those feelings were to be delayed. It was not our time yet to be together. I had to wait and I remember in my mind when the hand on my mouth suddenly tightened painfully.

To this day, I believe it was a dream as I felt the blindfold shift and at the same time I felt the man behind me shifting closer. I felt his breath and lips moving against my ear. I knew he was talking but I heard nothing until all his words registered in my mind.

“We’re not doing this because you know too much. We are thoroughly enjoying this”.

A shiver of fear ran through my body. What were they going to do to me, to us? A command to remove my blindfold was shouted from the other side of the room. I almost heard the smirk in that command… this couldn’t be good. I felt something cold and hard touch the left side of my face. Within seconds it was removed again and the light from the room made everything visible. I had to blink a few times to be able to see, but when I could….I wished I couldn’t.

What I saw him, the vision of Skip was burned in my memory instantly…the horrible sight of my love boiled to the brink of death. I knew that if he received help now, he would be able to survive. But I also knew that they would never allow it. Still… I begged, pleaded with them to get him out of this nightmare, he wasn’t involved, he know nothing. They surprised me by repeating my question.

“You want us…to get him out of this situation?”

I replied positive to their question… it was a mistake…a great mistake. It took me five seconds to register what they meant, but by then it was already too late.

My body froze as I watched my love burn in boiling water, to purify himself because my love made mistakes as a young boy. But I loved him …and he didn’t even know that I loved him.

“See? We helped him out of this situation, we kept our promise. And now you’re going to keep yours.”

I heard those words, but I refused to wake up from my dream…I hated those who did this thing to him…just as I hated myself. I think it was a demon, but I was too afraid to open my eyes.

This demon grabbed my head and I was pulled back by my hair, forcing me to look at his face. I froze…how? He must have seen the question on my on my face because he laughed. He took a step closer and grabbed my chin. All I wanted was to pull Skip from the boiling water.

“How I am able to be here you ask? Wouldn’t you like to know my dear…no…you are going to keep your promise first. You know too much so you have to be punished. As is the promise.”

He gave me a mocking kiss on my lips and walked away. When he was almost at the door at the other side of the room I saw his hand make a waving motion as if ordering something to be done. I felt something cold and hard behind my left ear…. I instantly knew… it was over. My lips uttered three small words before the world went black.

” I love you.”

It was over. Skip survived. He was purified.